Happy New Year!
I have been gone for a while but, I am back!
I have been trying to get into computer animation school, I also have
been trying to get myself to go hiking, but its only happened
randomly though out the time ive been gone.

This is a new year and I am super excited because I have that feeling
of motivation. I rarely have it, so I know it when I feel it. LOL.

I have already bought a juicer and have made a deal with my roomie
to eat healthier. I have not been running or hiking because I have been
really sick but come rain or shine, tomorrow I will go hiking twice and running
at least once.

So the juicer was expensive, however.. it is flippin awesome! the best drinks
I have ever made! I must say, I am really nervous about putting veggies in that
thing but I will try it soon. I would so prefer to squish all my veggies into
one cup then have them spread through out the day with a crap look on my face. lol.
In case you have one too and are just starting... I hear that if you add apple to
the juiced veggies it will sweeten it right up! Also.., for some odd reason I can really taste the sugar in the fruits, so it is perfect for a sweet craving!

I am going to get into shape this year! I really want it and I am not going to fail!
I want to get into shape by my birthday, which is when summer will start. My birthday is in June, so I have 5 more months to get these buns going! beach babe body here I come!

I will be using the link on my top, right of the profile to keep track of things and
i will look into doing the work outs with zuzanna light! It's kinda hard cause my apartment is upstairs but i'll figure some thing out. Plus, I plan on getting a gym member ship! I already have two volunteers to be a gym buddy. One buddy is for pilates, and boxing. gosh! Is that ever expensive! It's 200 a month!
The other bud is for the running at the gym.

Now, the running gym guy is supper hot! So, before I embarrass myself I am going to start hiking and running out side of the gym and when i get better at running I will
do it inside on a treadmill. He says all it takes is 5 minutes a day to get better. I believe him!

well.. its that time to go to the grocery store and buy some food!

-SO EXCITED ABOUT THE NEW YEAR-

x0x
nosnoozieq

In Depth Plan!

Dear you,
Hey there! Well, it's time for another post. I have been keeping busy with a lot of activities but not any concentrated and intended workouts. However, I will start Starting Monday.

This weekend I must clean the disaster that is in my apartment. I will be rearranging the house, and trying to get rid of clothes and I hope to get rid of my art. I feel like if I were to burn them it would be a waste... so, I plan on letting someone else use em for firewood behind my back. lol.

On Monday I have a hiking date with a coworker. No... it is not a date date. It's just two chickies going hiking... suffering together...lol.

My downstairs neighbor ended up being in penthouse magazine and these other mags. I am happy for her, but I feel embarrassed to be outta shape. My boyfriend came in and told me about how hot our neighbor is and as soon as I saw it I went upstairs, did my make up and hair and came back down to hang out with my neighbors. How embarrassing! So, Ive decided to go more into depth and really try hard to pick myself up again.

so I updated on was my eating plan. I told you about my monthly plan on exercising and eating. You know, the one with a bigger girl and one with one in shape, with arrows and goals on it. Well, I've decided I've gotten off to a rotten start the second time around, and I have so much weight to catch up on.

I am keeping my monthly calendars posted. Three total, but: one on the fridge, one above my bed and one in the bathroom. I always end up using the one in the bathroom to update the most. Anyways, tonight I made a weekly calender with the same meal plans!

These weekly meals plans will be like my food diary. I will be printing out my weekly meal schedule, and leave space next to it to detail about any changes and what time I ate. Then I am going to put a blank page behind it, and I must write about how I felt about each meal, what my thoughts on about the meals, the day for exercise(if I wish) and if I have any upcoming dates where food will be replaced for a meal do to an occasion of some sort and how I plan on dealing with it. Once that day comes, it will be interesting to see how I did. I will collect these weekly and at the end of the month make an assessment. Write about it and see if I will continue.

Wish Me Luck!

nosnoozieq
x0x

Let's Ride... Upcoming Events!

Hey Guys.
It's been a while. I think a week. I feel awful about not working out, but I have only had the energy to go to work, the bathroom and squeeze a salad in.

Yes, I am still depressed. However, I had a conversation with a friend who cared and it made me feel better. It was nice to talk to some one and laugh. So, Thanks Andrew! It meant a lot to me.

I hope I did not gain all my weight back. I am just going to continue as if I never stopped. There area also a few new things I am going to do.

BLOG(S): I have decided I do not want to mash all the things I'd like to talk about under one blog. This way it will be easier for you to keep track of particular subjects.

There is another blog I have, The new blog is under this same profile and it's name is : Our Golden Ratio. It is going to be the beauty/fashion side of my blog.

My future plans will have maybe another one or two blogs. One about cooking and another just personal.. maybe l.a/California adventures/recommendations.

TWITTER: I have a nosnoozieq twitter. http://twitter.com/nosnoozieq I am not very popular so, I have time to fix it up and work on it,lol. But, that is what the next upcoming event is.

YOUTUBE:
I have an account. It is the same name and I will set a link and make a post about it when the video's up.

Dusting My knees Off- I hope

I know I made a post last night about getting up from the horse when you fall off but these things take time for me. Maybe, I should explain.

This entry will be my most personal entry, so it may be boring but for those of
you who want to understand more about how it all works for me, I think this is one of the things you should know.

First off, I am still very depressed and I haven't worked out in a couple days. Until a few months ago I've had serve depression and anxiety for most of my life. My anxiety and depression caused me to have fatigue, stomach problems, large amounts of hair falling out and to have breakdowns more often than not. I thought it was normal to feel the way I did, after all, my childhood was not as ... warmhearted as it was supposed to be. One day my boyfriend informed me that I was sad, and in pain all the time. To my surprise I said "I am?". I had gotten so used to the state of being I thought it was just the way I was meant to be.

It took a year to understand that I was not feeling the way a healthy person should.
After all these years, I finally couldn't take it anymore! I just could not go on living the way I was. I would do anything just to function. So, I decided to start taking care of myself. I thought "I must fix my mind". However, during a session with my amazing therapist, I realized I must start taking care of all of me. Body, mind and soul. That day I talked a friend into hiking with me and we have been hiking and/or working out since.

I don't understand why I haven't really changed. I tried. I really, really tried. I thought it was. Ever since that day I had my crying breakdown I posted about I have just gone back to feeling how I used to. I just don't know if I am meant to feel any other way. I've been thinking about giving up this blog, working out, therapy, and I've been coming home to shower and sleep. I haven't really wanted to be awake or talk but I am doing my best to do it anyways. I am supposed to go hiking twice tomorrow. I don't know if I will (I have trouble getting up when I am depressed) but I will try and I will try to think positive.

I hope I can start again,

nosnoozieq
x0x

Falling Off The Horse

Hey guys.
Sometimes life is really complicated. I often find myself in a state of
befuddlement because it's impossible imagine how my life got so messy, even though
it is I who chooses my paths.


Last night was no good. I hear how I am fat and how I need to lose weight from my coworkers everyday. It's already bad I think so, but it's another thing to be reminded of it by my coworkers. Poo.

Anyways, my friend/work out buddy came to pick me up after work (unbeknownst to me) and he is just so mean to me! We are usually insulting towards each other with laughter but I guess he was in a terrible mood, so it wasn't funny this time. We went to the grocery store so I could pick up some things to make a salad and he commented on how I looked as if I gained weight and I just couldn't take it anymore!

I could hold it until I got in the car, but after that I flooded the car. I couldn't
stop crying and I didn't want to talk about it. I just wanted to go home. I wanted to go home, lay in my bed and never get up again.I asked him to take me home. I was so upset I thought to myself "I'll just stop eating!". However, by the time I got home I was hungry, which made me cry more.

I didn't know what to do with myself. I didn't end up working out but I did just eat a salad, even though I felt like eating pizza, a hamburger, and fries. I guess I did eat bad when I felt bad. I never noticed. I guess I noticed this time because instead of eating what I wanted my boyfriend said no, and I just paced around my apartment and cried until I made my salad. After, I was still hungry but I just had a glass of milk to fill me.

I felt so bad for not working out. I felt so bad for wanting to eat more. I felt so bad because I'm not losing weight fast enough to make people stop bringing my weight up. I felt so bad last night I feel pessimistic now. I don't want to talk to my friend today either, and he's the one with the gym.

All this overwhelming, depressing emotions have put a dent in my faith in me, and my work out schedule. However, I am trying to remember to take responsibility for my own emotions and actions! Just because I fell off the horse (wagons more like it..lol) doesn't mean I should lay there and cry.

Trying to get back up,

nosnoozieq
x0x

p.s
HAPPY 4TH!
x0x

New Month, New Plan!

So, this is a new month and I am rather excited/nervous about it!

This month is the month where I have to put a match under my bum because
I must lose 33 pounds to catch up. whoa! That's a lot for a month I think.
That's one pound every day this month, except on two i need to lose 2.

So, I know I'm starting 3 days late but I made a calender again. Same concept
but I planned out my meals for the month. I upped two days a week to going hiking twice a day per week. I also am going to work out every day. My meals mostly consist of: oatmeal
chicken
rice
salad
fruit
tuna
yogurt
pb&j with honey
cereal
burritos
I know this seems really bland but not only is it healthy but good for my Gerd. I don't mind it though because I am really determined to get into shape.

I, also, hope I can get some whey protein. I think i will be replacing a meal with it if I do get it but until then I am going to stick to whats on the menu. I know it builds muscle (which I will be looking forward to), but I also hear it helps with weight loss. So, I hope that goes well.
I'd hate to grow hair on my chest and become sirnosnoozieq. lol.

well ladies, audios

nosnoozieq
x0x

The Weigh In- bum bum bum!

Hey there guys!
Well... I must say it's been a really busy month. Working out makes me feel as if my life were fuller some how, but I know it's only two or three hours of my day. Kinda weird huh? I'm super tired!As of right now, my arms are very sore. Yey!

Anyways, on with the main bits!
In the middle of the month, on the 15th, I weighed myself and I had gained weight! I weighed 185 pounds! I was so upset! I think I was really stressed out about it! How could I have gained weight when I was working so hard? I was ready to give up right there. I felt so bad about gaining weight I wanted to see if continuing I could lose weight. So, I weighed my self the other day and GUESS WHAT?!

I lost 6 pounds! Yey! I am at 179!

I can't tell at all. I feel like maybe I just didn't weigh myself right? I must have, I am trained to do weigh ins (I am a C.N.A). I cant believe it took a month to lose 6 pounds! That's really slow! I mean, for me anyways. My boyfriend says the weight should start falling off now but im not holding my breath. Either way I am happy. It is certainly better than going on that scale and having it go up!

I want to lose 50 pounds, and I want to do it in 3 months. That means about 17 pounds a month. I sorta didn't make this months weigh in. So now I have catching up to do!


June: start: 180
mid: 185
end: 179
goal: 163
MISSED: 16
It's like I didnt even do this month! I am going to try to make up for this month!

July: start: 179
goal: 146
total: 33
Yikes! Thats a lot but... not impossible. I hope to keep my goal! Wish me luck guys, I need it!

Thanks For Listening!
Happy Fat Losing & Muscle Gaining!

nosnoozieq
x0x

Being Safe, Wise & Kind To My Body When Hiking!

Hey guys!
well, I am sorry I trumped all over my own post with reasons instead of the motivational
part of my losing weight tips, and the personal pros and cons of hiking.

Hiking

Pros: *My butt will get into better shape! wahhoo!
*it will tone my legs
*it is a great cardio work out
*it has helped my blood circulate!- I have always had problems
being cold but now I'm warm and it feels fantastic!
*It helps slowly introduce running (because I run down hill)
I can control my breathing! I've always had a hard time controlling my
breathing, but I can pace myself and push myself at the same time, so it
helps.
*It's a fun activity that I can do with friends in shape and outta shape
because not too many people hate hiking but many hate running
*There are generally nice and encouraging people at the hiking sites,
so it makes it pleasant

Cons: *It sucked when I first started out because it was so hard.
*My feet got calluses
*If not done properly it causes injuries

Inspiration:
*Zuzana Light- I posted her link on the right side
of my blog at the top. Click This Link To Take A Peek At My Inspiration!
*Making a plan, use calenders, dates with friends and motivational rewards *All those time people said I was fat.
*My legs rubbing together when I walk up the hill
*The clothes I cant wear


Tips

*Make sure you have your cell phone! incase of any emergencies.
*Make sure you let someone know the general area of where you are going to be
*Make sure that you have the right shoes!
(I don't even have the right shoes yet and it kind of sucks)
*Make sure you wear sunblock! You don't want to burn!
*Definitely stretch! I didn't and my hip was hurting for a week!
*After exercise of any kind if you having knee problems or any
other unusual problems (other than soreness) you should definitely see a physical therapist at
least once to get some advise. I did and it worked for me.
*When you are going up hill make sure to use your butt and not rely on your knees and upper leg
to push you up. I know this sounds weird but I used to and my knees would kill me the next
day. I did not recognize what I was doing that until I saw a physical therapist.
*If your legs are rubbing together its best to wear leggings!
I find they are comfy, don't make you too hot and are light!
Some times they are expensive but forever21 has some basic ones
that are cheap! Leggings!

**Problems with peeing!
I always had to pee when I got to the top of the mountain!
It was so uncomfortable! It seriously looked like I had ants in my pants...lol.
What you should do is through out your day make sure you are hydrated and
go to the bathroom when you need to. 30 minutes before you go hiking stop drinking.
Go to the bathroom every time you have to. Then 15 minutes before make sure
you are not dehydrated. If you are thirsty drink about 4oz of water. It helps
if there is a bathroom at the site so you can go just before you start but if
not try going before you leave. After that the general rule is to not over
drink and hydrate your self every 20 minutes with 4-6 oz of water.

Overall, I love hiking! I get sun, air, a chance to exercise and be social,
to see cute kids and pooches, and to build muscle and LOSE FAT!

Thanks for tuning in and I hope I was helpful! Any questions, tips or comments do yo thang!

nosnoozieq
xox